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As far back as I could remember,
I knew what I wanted to be
The most useless human on the face of the Earth
Spare change in the couch to scale against my worth
Admittedly, it takes a pretty dim view of one
Definition of utility
‘Coz I know the city fathers cannot be arsed to bother
With scant commercial opportunity
We have to be meant for more than repeatedly taking it on the chin
More than bemused adults ineptly chasing dreams we had as kids
I’ve tried nothing, I’m all out of ideas, no end to this world of hell in sight
But we gotta put our heads together if we’re gonna last the night
Ensconced within a system that demands
A piece of heart or a pound of flesh
They say “Thank you for your efforts, here’s the fruit of your toil
If you’re still alive to eat what’s left”
The gifts we receive from preceding generations
No optimism, only dread
To be technically alive but passionately dead
God forbid I want some roses coupled with my bread
Practice never made perfect
Me and the owners don’t see eye to eye
I can’t get for the life of me the value placed
Against the game for which I go out and die
Don’t go chasing the market
Is your only role to meet a demand?
‘Coz in the evergreen war of art versus commerce
I know you know where I make my stand
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Raindrops keep falling in the middle of the summer
It’s a welcome break when the heat has me so blessed
My knees are atrophied just like a lovesick sailor
And everyone believes me when I say I did my best
I could get my foot inside the door, but not much farther
And you were on the bottom rung, completely at a pause
I asked about it, suddenly, beggars could be choosers
But I can save my sanity if I quit grasping straws
Nothing’s more pathetic than a mouth for deaf ears
Rehearsing boring speeches no one ever will hear
I know you don’t care either way if I stay or leave
But if you come around, save the last slam for me
Tell me what you want me to hear, and I’ll believe it
And if it helps us sleep at night, just do what it takes
The weight of this consternation is just much too heavy
I would be happy just to scrape it off my plate
Closure was the prize at the top of the mountain
I’dve killed myself for a dollop of that balm
Never knew till now that I could look a bit more local
I could make it for myself from my own two palms
Cliche, but it bears repeating if you have doubt
Sometimes you gotta get lost if you wanna be found
In my life I have to reintroduce mystery
If I return alive, save the last slam for me
‘Coz nothing’s more pathetic than a mouth for deaf ears
Rehearsing boring speeches no one ever will hear
I know you don’t care either way if I stay or leave
But if you come around, save the last slam for me
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Column Inches
04:09
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An old account, corrected, don’t know what I expected
This walk down memory lane became a mugging, jacked my train
Brought me back from the fringes--hold those old column inches
The bylines use my name, but I don’t rush to stake my claim
Inhabit my old frame of mind
What used to occupy my time
Mirrors reflect in parallel
Multiple branches of myself
Can’t see the forest for the trees, these different infinities
What you saw from the rails--recede your eyes, you draw the veil
What was apparent became opaque--who am I to be the arbiter of fate?
I could write a narrative that supports my hypothesis
Crafting a reason from excuse
To grasp my ties and cut me loose
I can say with total certainty
That man in my memories is not me
Tell me, what does the future bring?
The man who remembers everything
Blessed are the amnesiacs
So blissful the man who stared right back
Don’t call it a callback, it’s so clear--the fault lines were already here
Will you be the one who acts or falls right through the open cracks?
I got a brand new mission to settle the contradictions
At the end of the day I can absolve myself, yeah it’s okay
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San Francisco House
04:04
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I wanna go back to that San Francisco house
I need an encounter in the outside world to remind me what it’s all about
I get so down, feeling suffocated in my hometown
So maybe good old friends and the coastal air can set me back on solid ground
We can bum around Japantown or stay in and shoot the shit all night
Either way, it’s what I need to put my head back on right, and now I
I wanna go back
I wanna stay up till the fire dies down, and watch the sun rise
The night was young, and you were holding court, but somehow, I caught your eye
I played guitar, you sang along to every line
Like we had known each other forever, I hadn’t felt like that in a long time
In that harsh daylight, I could see you would not be the one for me
I can’t hit the stuff that hard, but we’ll always have that night in the backyard, and I
I wanna go back
Let’s go!
I wanna go back, but I don’t think that I can stay
My obligations run through my head, but I’ll return again someday
I don’t think I’m cut out to hustle like a supernova star
If I ever drive its winding streets, I know I’m crashing my fucking car
But if I’m ever feeling short, I know what lies two hours north
A Clipper scan, a couch to crash, the day will come when I’ll be back
I’m coming back
I wanna go back
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We All Die In Increments
03:34
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I do not miss the future, a false bill of goods
But it got me in the door and that’s understood
Everybody buys in, it’s the name of the game
There’s no shame in partaking if everybody does the same
I’m on the up-and-up now, but I know I got
Nowhere to run, and less to hide
I feel it creeping up now, and its siren song is deafening
A high-pitched whine
I got that new dance down, and all you gotta do
Is shake and writhe rest of your life
We all die in increments, what makes you think
You are exempt from that same plight?
The way that man treats moth, surprised he was so kind
I heard the perfect thing ever and then I died
I can’t see past my past now, it’s got me trapped in my bed
The gif that keeps on giving is the loop playing in my head
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School of Thought
05:11
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A second could sustain you for days--as the clock nears zero, see how time inflates
Expending whatever it takes in the struggle not to let it go to waste
All the while, searching for a catch, a scab to poke at or an itch in search of a scratch
The time was never meant to last--nothing will be left, you’re not coming back
Go cross your name out with this pen, you’ll never lecture at the school of thought again
You knew the stakes that you laid down--you know that loser leaves town
A statue on the side of the road--devoid of context, no one can recall the code
But we still pass along the tales in hushed whispers and misremembered details
Do they keep your name around in your heads, in your hearts, rolled around in your mouths
Or is every last toil and tear drowning in a flood that washed out the years
Go cross your name out with this pen, you’ll never lecture at the school of thought again
You knew the stakes that you laid down--you know that loser leaves town
But I can still see trace amounts of things you freely gave before things went south
Like when you called me out of the blue from the roof of your house
I remember how you could work a crowd, a dead silence snapped into a chorus of shouts
The greatest trick you never taught was knowing when to back out
And I can still see trace amounts of things you freely gave before things went south
Like when you called me out of the blue from the roof of your house
So cross your name out with this pen, you’ll never lecture at the school of thought again
You knew the stakes that you laid down--you know that loser leaves town
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Fake Canadian Sacramento, California
Angular power-pop trio from Sacramento, CA.
Christopher (vocals, guitar)
Howard (bass, vocals)
Jordan (drums)
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